wow its been a while!

so like school started and everything was cool but the bullshit as always had to happen! my friends all of a sudden decided i didn't exists anymore. Which is alright cuz they sucked anyways. so i pretty much was forced in to finding new friends bu i just hung out with some old ones :). (im so anti social). so i was walking around with my friend when we stopped to talk to this chick (who i would have never talked to myself cuz shes cooler than me) and she and her friend were chowing down on burritos and their stick thin!!!!those girl were freaken models, and i realized that becouse they were stick thin it wasn't awkward when they ate. so i longed for that to wear their stupid tight pants and feel great!!

so i wanted to just run to bathroom and throw up!!!

i want to be like them!!!!! grrr!!!

i have skin/hair like them all i need to do is have a body like theirs. i shop at the same places as them.

so i have to get as thin as them cuz now im at 186!!!

so from now on its only veggies and fruit.

and working out like a crazy whore!!!

ugh its been awhile but ive maneged to get my chubby little hands on a computer with internet sadly i have bad new im at 173 now this stinks. i also have a stramge tale to tell i was walking with my friend and her really hot brother when my friend stumble and in an attemp to catch her balance grabbed my arm and brought me down with her shes an really big girl . bigger than me by alot. she fell and i hit the ground harder than..something that would hit the ground hard. so were on the floor and i start to giggle as i always o when im injured. and his eyes widen and he tells his sister to get off becouse i looked to fragile for her fat ass to be falling on me. and my slow amazon woman mind did not take take this as a compliment. and i said excuse me? he said becouse i was all lil and petite . im anything but lil so this confused me alot my whole life i was the tall girl guys didnt want to square dance with in thirdgrade. so then he went on about how he was so tall and hot and how i was so small and cute to him. im thinking this guy is half blind. so this confused is it possible to a different number in a scale but i touch the fat and its there thats something that my brain cant trick into believing. im confused by this and im trying not to let it distract me from my goals. please my millions of followers tell me what you think ill be sure to read your guyses comment wen i can sneak around another relatives computer.
bye tone of love and positve thoughts,
AN.
ps. i started watching this new series called pretty lil iars the girls are gorgouse and thin. i love that show for thinspo.

bullshit

for a couple of days i had this idea that i could figure out a healthy way to lose weight.
bulshit! bullshit!!

that was a totally dumb thing to Good thing i snapped out of it in time other wise fatty mcfafat would be blogging here.until tomorrow I'll be making a plan to lose shit loads of weight in little while. so ya.

I'll see my invisible commenter in while. (no one reads my blog:( )

lovez. A.N